Your"self" amazes you

It's so interesting that sometimes you are able to take control of yourself and sometimes it just drifts away from your hands, no matter how much you try to hold it.
I recently discovered that there are phases of your contentment. There are times when you are all satisfied and fulfilled with your life, and yourself, and at this point you feel no desire or longing for anybody…anything in this world. You are all self motivated and you start believing that you aptly know what will keep you happy and what will not. You are all clear in your head and you see the path you intend to take right in front of your eyes and you start treading to wherever it wishes to take. You meet them all on this way and keep guiding, directing and leading with a happy heart and a content soul. Your guidance gives you an affirmation of your own beliefs and you get stronger with each lesson that you learn and unlearn.
You get happiness in all the little little things, people, smiles, deeds, nature……and life seems just so beautiful that somewhere you are caught in amazement of those wanting to end their lives. Why would anyone want to end this gorgeous life when you get to live it once?
While you are on this path, you meet all kinds of people. Some follow what you tread, some tell you to tread a better path, some believe in your belief blindly, and some catch you by surprise when they show you a different meaning of life. This different meaning never meant anything to you earlier, it suddenly gets you thinking why didn’t it matter and why does it now? You always knew it existed, but you always thought it wasn’t what you were searching for, and you would be happy without it, but this influence gets so strong sometimes that you start thinking about it, getting into it, believing in it and one day you realize you are a part of it. It kind of makes you happy, but you still somewhere at the back of your mind believe whether this is what you want to be?
This is where the two sides of your brain start talking to each other. One says , you could live without it earlier and had different dreams to fulfill; while the other says, you never experienced it to believe it…now that you have, if it makes you happy you shouldn’t bother about what you treaded. Both sound convincing and strong and try to pull to make a decision. This is exactly the point where you are caught by surprise of your “own self ,” that you are confused; when earlier you were bang on in your thoughts.
It doesn’t matter what you decide in the end, because each path will have its own pros and cons; but what you’ve come to see is a new side of your own self. “Experience shows you your own faces.” What you never thought you were, you become some day. Hence experiences should continue to happen, to make you see yourself in different mirrors of life.
Do what keeps you happy in the end, because nothing can be stronger than that to show you what you are made of.